Happyness, More of Less..

Perfect start to Sunday morning.. Hot ginger tea, India Vs. Sri Lanka ODI, Sunday Times news paper, and completing my agendas-for-the-day list..

The title "Happyness, More or less.." comes from a track called 'Lucky Man' by a British Rock band 'The Verve'.. I'm kind of moved by the first and last two lines of the song.. Here it goes:

Happiness

More or less

It's just a change in me

Something in my liberty

Oh, my, my

Happiness

Coming and going

I watch you look at me

Watch my fever growing

I know just where I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?

How many times do I have to learn

All the love I have is in my mind?

But I'm a lucky man

With fire in my hands

..

Work of an art by the lyricist, and how true. Happyness is indeed a matter of perception. It's just a small change in you and how you view things. And when you open those doors of perception, will you discover happyness in small, yet significant, things that you may simply choose to overlook in your daily mundane lives. Happyness is a matter of choice. Today every one of us is fighting some kind of war. War against family (yes, i repeat - family), peers, system and society. And you may loose some and win some of those battles. Its now your choice, if you choose to be engrossed in past and hence buried in melancholy or choose to look forward and move on - and stay happy! Some food for thought from one of my colleagues Rahul Joshi (fans call him Mr. Joe) - "We mortals just get caught in the romance of the sadness of the plot till it finally unfolds into a happy ending..". Couldn't agree more!

Guess, I needn't explain why they "Y" in place of "I" in Happiness.. :)

Cheers & have a Happy New Year..

17th Dec.: The Re-Birth Day

The 25th Birthday (of my life so far) was a different one.. It came when I was (and am) going through some paradigm shifts in philosophy and thought (more so thought process). I have been trying really hard to look at things differently off-late, trying to remain unruffled by all the battles that I am facing personally.

Why am I calling it "The Re-Birth Day"?

This birthday comes in a phase when I need to draw some lines.. The lines that would re-define rest of my life. The lines that would change perspectives about how I used to view life. These lines would inadvertently expose me to new battles - with no one to bank upon. The lines which would leave me lonesome and far apart from people - I called my own. The lines where I set priorities. The lines where I choose the road less travelled. The lines when I tread alone. The lines where I need to be strong mentally, emotionally and physically. The lines which would raise many questions but would still be left unanswered. The lines where I choose truth over a bond. The lines where I shepherd the week through the valley of darkness. The lines where I forgive and forget. The lines where I'm - Born Again!

The lines where I lay my vengeance upon thee..

All Those Yesterdays..

Don't you think you oughtta rest?
Don't you think you oughtta lay you head down?
Don't you think you want to sleep?
Don't you think you oughtta lay your head down tonight?

Don't you think you've done enough?
Oh, don't you think you've got enough, well maybe..
You don't think there's time to stop
There's time enough for you to lay your head down, tonight, tonight

Let it wash away
All those yesterdays

What are you running from?
Taking pills to get along
Creating walls to call your own
So no one catches you? drifting off and
Doing all the things that we all do

Let them wash away
All those yesterdays
All those yesterdays
All those paper plates

You've got time, you've got time to escape
There's still time, it's no crime to escape
It's no crime to escape, it's no crime to escape
There's still time, so escape It's no crime, crime..

The Struggle Within..

Struggle comes in different shapes and sizes. Right from struggling to find a taxi in the morning or trying to patch a broken family..

Eternal struggle is the law of life. How often do we get pissed off, thinking, how unfair our world has been to us when try to compare our lives to those who've had it nice and easy. But the fact remains - nobody can save your ass, apart from the man in the mirror.

I think that father-son scene from the movie Rocky Balboa changed my life..

"I'd hold you up to say to your mother, "this kid's gonna be the best kid in the world. This kid's gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew." And you grew up good and wonderful. It was great just watching you, every day was like a privilige. Then the time come for you to be your own man and take on the world, and you did. But somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you're no good. And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that! I'm always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens. You're my son and you're my blood. You're the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, ya ain't gonna have a life."

I'm afraid life aint one of a Karan Johar movies. Here, you tend to get thwarted by some or the other situation which are more often than not, are a resultant of your own actions. Sad part is, sometimes you may have to take the onus of some other people's actions and deal with it. So what? Should you sit down and go with the flow? Or you trust your values and take a detour? What if it involves your own near and dear ones? In my case, I choose the latter. During the course of our lives we tend to close many doors and end a few chapters. What's important it is we embrace the change and move on. Opening new doors..

The battles that count aren't the ones for gold medals. The struggles within yourself -- the invisible, inevitable battles inside all of us -- that's where it's at.